THEREWS MY MYSPACE NAME

http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendID=18183732&Mytoken=20050811191842

Well ive moved on off of Xangaim on MySpace now.

there it is!!!

well im chillin at courtneys....bored..........o yes me and gerry are over.........hes dting some girl names lean or someshit.....i dont care.....but those pictures hurt still looking at them...      i kiinda like Eli now but i dont think i am ready to date someone or even trust another human soul....im kinda laying low for a while....i dont wanna be noticed..........i didnt do much today....... im kinda sad me and gerry are done with it WAS A WHOLE year.........like veeryday with each other......i guess we got sick of one another......like i hate him for using me and lyin....he never cheated just ......it seemed like he gave up to soon....to soon for me to  save it....i guess its partially my fault.     i still love him dearly and it was really really hard trusting another guy .....but i grew to trust him and hold a bond ive never had with anyone and i grew to love him most of all and after so long he just gave up and it seems like it wasnt all worth it........like  i dont get him...on the phone and wat not he;s mean like he doesnt care for me and i was some obsessed teenage grl....but when we're toghether its.......it all comes back....and it sucks for me........cuz now im here waiting.......i wish he would come back.........i want the old baby boy back not the one i grew to hate......the one that hit me or used me........the one that loved me.......the one that held me when it rained.......the one who knew what to do when i cryed and he was ALWAYs there........even if i was fifty miles away he would drive to see his baby.......but most of all i miss fallin asleep in his arms and waking up to kis warm kisses on my cheeks and knowin everything was perfect and i was ok....and all my imperfections and problems were gone....like nothing bad had ever happened to me......and this is the first time any  of u mother fuckers are gonna read this....and know how i dfeeel so dont use it to your advantage......you know....last night i told him goodbye.....i havnt talked to him since......i dont think he cares.......but im still waiting for him to write back........to tell me he loves me......and one day ill be in his arms again......waking up to the same kisses and the gorgous eyes..............but i think for now ill sleep alone...........ill drink my green tea and write my dreams down and do watever i want..........but deep inside im torn apart by love once again..... it sucks cuz you know who really cared here.................its obviuisly the person here ......sitting in her friends basement alone..........writting about her love life....and how one guy made the biuggest difference in her life ..........  ................                                     

and he'll never know it.